I Am Sad

At 8:03pm Tuesday evening some sad news came into my life. My cousin Michael Wayne Grommet passed away this evening. Life for  my family will never be the same. My life will never be the same. I will never be the same.  He is the first one of our generation whom we have known to die. The exception is a cousin who died at birth more than 55 years ago. He was my only male cousin older than me. There were three of us cousins born within five years of each other. Now we are two alive and one dead. My heart is hurting…for me…for his wife…for his brother and sister..for my aunt…for the rest of my family.

This was a sudden death…We were not prepared. I was not ready for him to leave. None of us were. Most of us did not get to say good bye while he was alive. There used to be three people who could call me by a  nickname bestowed upon me by his father. His father was one and he and his brother were the other two…Now there is one…his younger brother…I was not prepared for this. I know, most of us never are.

I will get over this pain and sense of loss..For now it hurts and I am crying. Crying is good…I know this..The tears will end and life will resume its daily routine. But for now, I am sad.

I take solace in knowing that my Heavenly Father knows what is best. I know there is life after death. I know in my heart of hearts that all will be well. For now I am sad and hurt.

Praying will help..Walking will help..Knitting will help..Time will ease the pain…Life will still never be the same.

Mikey, I love you lots. Please rest in peace.

One response to “I Am Sad

  1. I grieve with you. I have one uncle, who has declined surgery for internal bleeding, and one first cousin left in this world. It’s shocking to realize how vulnerable we really are to death. I have no children; so it’s very strange. No one shares my memories. Having someone who shares your memories is important. So, I grieve with you on the loss of your cousin.